art bitch

heaven holds a place for those who pray

2010-04-05T16:26:00.004+03:00

I should be busy taking pictures (those boring tasks you need to do when you're
applying to art schools) but instead I find myself staying awake far too long
and drafting disco deers and other stupid stuff to my sketchbook. The deadline is
coming closer and closer and slowly killing my vision of myself next autumn; dressed
in black head to toe and going to some fancy art school among the snobbish hipster kids.
Too bad.

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My dad beat me 'cause mine said "mother"

2010-03-26T11:29:00.003+02:00

Fuck all the snobbish art schools. This one may be crappy, but this is what I want to learn.
Any of you guys want a tattoo?

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YOU MAY HIDE IF I WAS CLOSER BUT I'M FAR AWAY

2010-03-14T18:30:00.003+02:00

My favourite 25-inch jeans - boy. Isn't he beautiful? @ Sthlm 2009.

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YOU'RE NOT NINETEEN FOREVER SO PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER

2010-03-09T17:46:00.004+02:00

Gotta love these hotel after parties. Even though you can't remember a lot (you only know you were eating pancakes for
breakfast among the other hotel guests cause you were told so) and especially if ambulance men wake you up from the corridor floor.

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Where the hell do the days go there's another one sneaking away

2010-02-24T23:55:00.006+02:00

and I don't like to think about the next one

Old favorites on film. Crappy b&w, skinny boys, quiet hotel corridors at night, having afternoon tea with plaster cast dudes.
What's not to love? (Oh, by the way - did you notice, no cigarettes in this post!)

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AND I MIGHT SING, "OH BURY ME"

2010-02-15T14:57:00.006+02:00

I tell you: when you start drawing on empty cigarette packs, you should definitely do something with your so called life.
Especially if your poor blog is turning into a fucking L&M advertisement.

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CUT OFF THE BALL, CHAIN AND THE ROPES AROUND MY FEET

2010-01-31T23:48:00.004+02:00

Having an existential angst, a creative block & craving for a cigarette.
All I've got to say is fuck you Jonathan from Spotify. Pretty sad, huh?

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Gotta little bit of dirty down in my soul Jesus doesn't love me anymore

2009-12-01T15:36:00.001+02:00

There ain't no ball and chain to hold me down got a golden smile and a platinum frown

2009-11-27T16:47:00.003+02:00

STOCKHOLM SYNDROME

2009-11-12T19:56:00.003+02:00

Breathing fresh Stockholm air through a filter. I want back, now.

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the demon running into my blood spreading inside my veins making me see things in different light

2009-11-02T15:24:00.003+02:00

I SCREAMED DOWN THE PHONELINE: "SO IS THIS THE PRICE OF LOVE?"

2009-10-03T18:11:00.006+03:00

God I'm bored right now! Bored and frustrated. Seasonal affective disorder is coming and taking me, I can feel it... Luckily I can see some light at the end of the tunnel - I've got a great project going on, you'll hear about it later (when it's something more than just some scrawls written on empty cigarette packs).

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OH OH SIT UP LISTEN TO THE RHYTHM HIP HOP BODY SHOCK GOOD FREAK LOLLIPOP

2009-09-18T14:48:00.002+03:00

WELL I CAN'T REALLY DANCE BUT BABY WON'T YOU DANCE WITH ME AND IF YOU WANT TO TAKE YOUR CHANCE THEN BABY TAKE YOUR CHANCE ON ME

2009-08-26T00:52:00.004+03:00

If I had a band, I'd make this my album name, or a song name - except I'd add "on the dancefloor" between "kids" and "got". (& I'd not use this shitty drawing as a album cover) Maybe I should start one.

... too bad I can't play anything.

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I'M SO TIRED OF BEING STUCK IN THIS MESS AND NIGHTMARE WON'T YOU COME AND TAKE ME UP AND TAKE ME CLOSE TO THE REAL LIFE

2009-08-19T01:18:00.006+03:00

WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I GOT IN TROUBLE I WAS A SAILOR I FELL FOR THE BOTTLE

2009-08-16T21:41:00.002+03:00

Somehow I take most of my photos while I'm drunk - these too, after plenty of tequila shots and wine. Pretty night by a lake, sailor themed party and too much cigarettes, that's a good way to spend these quite last moments of soon-to-be-gone summer.

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he tells his kids not to be bad and grow up like their normal dad he hides behind his mask of grins and covers all his fucking sins

2009-08-10T15:33:00.006+03:00

Fuck all that happiness; pure hate, sadness, madness & teenage angst is the thing.

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I work the seaways the gale-swept seaways past shipwrecked daughters of wicked waters

2009-08-04T14:46:00.004+03:00

you take shots of blood and talk dirty you have ruthless sex raw meat and your revenge

2009-07-07T23:44:00.024+03:00

Partying for 4 days a row, not eating, just drinking, that's what you do when you're a misfit of the society like me. Smashing things, that's what you do if you happen to wear too heavy boots for dancing. Meat is murder.

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I was in love, now I'm in pain

2009-06-30T00:32:00.003+03:00

Sometimes you just get those vagaries.

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out the windows of my bedroom through the backyards of our neighbors

2009-06-12T14:31:00.002+03:00

I wish I was a virgin a virgin like you

2009-06-04T17:56:00.001+03:00

come on and get it before I change my mind come on kid don't waste my time

2009-06-01T22:24:00.002+03:00

Great days, boring photos.

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only this moment holds us together

2009-05-27T10:20:00.003+03:00

'cause I hope we'll make it to the radios and I hope we'll make it to the stadiums 'cause I hope I'll see you soon face to face backstage

2009-05-15T21:08:00.003+03:00

daddy wishes you were dead

2009-05-02T22:03:00.001+03:00

but at Saturday night you're the king

2009-04-27T01:09:00.006+03:00

I will be your bad luck I will be your bad luck charm

2009-04-20T16:35:00.006+03:00

STAY OR FOREVER GO PLAY OR YOU'LL NEVER KNOW

2009-04-11T01:32:00.002+03:00

I'm never I'm never down when you're when you're around

2009-03-31T02:52:00.001+03:00

we only do these things because all we are is bad kids

2009-03-24T14:27:00.004+02:00

Usually I don't care about kids very much - they squall and muddle and quarrel and are so frigging annoying (just like me, yeah!) - but I just love the last pic. So cute!

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and all summer long we laugh and we play but we don't talk to spiders

2009-03-17T22:14:00.004+02:00

I've been really busy - or I should have been - with studying & now there's three more days this shit and then I'm finally (quite) free! After that all I have is time. Like time to wait for the summer. Time to miss it. Truly madly deeply.

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so tell me he-he-he-he-he-he-he-he-hey: do you wanna drink some alcohol?

2009-03-07T01:33:00.008+02:00

Yesterday I came back from Helsinki, was some photoshoots there & now I'm damn tired. Despite it I would have liked to party - but now is Friday gone without any drinking and dancing and I'm bored & pissed of. Drunk calls from friends really don't help... Umm, maybe I should just go to bed.

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I'm drinking sinking swimming drowning working smirking learning burning sleeping thieving cheating beating I'm eating I'm deep in a goldfish bowl

2009-02-24T02:36:00.009+02:00

it's swim or sink

I'm deadly tired right now. The spring should come - and quickly, plz! - or I'm gonna jump out of a window (ummm like I tried one Sunday night I was super drunk & kicked out from a bar haha & other funny stuff...)

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where's the monkey that I've been told of

2009-02-15T02:48:00.003+02:00

LET'S GET THIS PARTY STARTED RIGHT LET'S GET DRUNK AND FREAKY FLY

2009-02-12T16:42:00.009+02:00

Gonna be a party pig tonight! ...AND tomorrow. And on Saturday. And on Sunday. Yeah, this is what I like!

everything is happenin' so fast

2009-01-30T17:02:00.005+02:00

I really dunno what I wanna be when I "grow up" but there's one thing I'm convinced: gonna have lots of fun before that!

"why are you sitting there? you should hang out with us!" "why so?" "..cause we look better!"

2009-01-27T15:58:00.013+02:00

More Division of Laura Lee - pics. Lovely guys - though they tried to steal my coctail umbrellas all the time.

damn division of laura lee's seagulls

2009-01-24T21:27:00.004+02:00

Last night: friend's birthday-pre-party, punch, white wine, Damn Seagulls + Division of Laura Lee gigs, colorful drinks with whipped cream, new friends & new t-shirt, heart-shaped candies from DoLL's guitarist, a crumbling chair and lots of englishswedish speaking. Brilliant!

you count down ten to one 'cause when I'm zero you can smile

2009-01-19T17:25:00.007+02:00

(oh how i miss the summer! )

I'm having terrible troubles to stay awake. But since I have no school tomorrow, I'm planning to spend the evening @ some bar (again) if nobody's having any better ideas... So I guess I really should take a nap - right now.

... And T, if you ever happen to read this, I'd like to get that hat back some day :)

so tell somebody to tell somebody to tell somebody new bring a crate and some wine oh and you'll be fine

2009-01-12T21:24:00.006+02:00

(photos from New Year)

Last Saturday was full of happening: first there was a photoshoot in Helsinki (we listened to Kings of Leon and drank strawberry sparkling wine while shooting, so cool!) and at night a party @ house of the boy of the second picture. (Took also lomopics there, I'll publish them later... maybe.) Superfun!! But today morning I was so tired I kinda slept over the whole school day... Oops.

ooh ooh one of us is gonna die young

2009-01-06T18:25:00.002+02:00

IF IT'S NOT FOREVER IF IT'S JUST TONIGHT OH IT'S STILL THE GREATEST THE GREATEST THE GREATEST

2009-01-02T15:56:00.005+02:00

New Year, 01:29 & 06:17. Was superrrrr.

YOU CAN'T CHOOSE IT SHARE OR LOOSE IT EVERY TIME SHARE OR LOOSE IT BABY YOU WERE NEVER MINE

2008-12-25T23:39:00.004+02:00

gosh i'm happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy about my brand new hit me tv-album!!
& new glasses too.

and so happy Christmas for black and for white for yellow and red ones let's stop all the fight

2008-12-25T00:04:00.001+02:00

Save the pigs, eat falafel.

he holds me in his metal arms whispers in his soothing robot voice "I'll keep you safe from harm and hold you in my arms I'll keep you safe from harm"

2008-12-19T19:16:00.008+02:00

(This I drew on Wednesday at a photo studio while waiting the make-up & hair be fixed. Modeling it's mostly just waiting. Waiting jobs, waiting make-up, waiting the show to begin, waiting everything)

Super good feeling right now, listening to Infadels & waiting the party to begin. Christmas holiday is (almost) here!

LOAD UP ON GUNS BRING YOUR FRIENDS IT'S FUN TO LOSE AND TO PRETEND SHE'S OVER-BORED AND SELF-ASSURED OH NO I KNOW A DIRTY WORD

2008-12-16T22:13:00.006+02:00

making a short-film fulfilled with teen angst & getting a real character part,
haha i fucking love this!

oh where are my friends when I need them now where are my friends when I'm alone in the night time

2008-12-13T18:17:00.004+02:00

Drunk-drawing, yes!!

It's a quite absurd situation when the club has closen it's doors and while you're standing outside it trying desperately to catch up your disappeared friends, you get over ten afterparty invitations from random people with whom you've never before talked but none of your very own friends dare to answer. Or, if they answer, they have taken a taxi to another town with someone they've just met... Luckily - you've got the ex-bfs.

Now all I want is to sleep until tomorrow.
... Or maybe more partying tonight?

plastic stars in our private galaxy synthpop stars come and play a show

2008-12-12T13:49:00.003+02:00

this is what I do during the math lessons

I WANNA SMOKE OUTSIDE YOUR FRONTDOOR I WANNA DANCE ON YOUR TABLE FALL ASLEEP ON YOUR KITCHEN FLOOR

2008-11-30T21:37:00.007+02:00

good old times.

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT LOVE IS YOU JUST DO AS YOU'RE TOLD JUST AS A CHILD AT TEN MIGHT ACT BUT YOU'RE FAR TOO OLD

2008-11-30T03:10:00.004+02:00

NO NO NO NO OHHH HUNGRY AND ADDICTED AGAIN NO NO NO NO OHHH ALMOST WITH NO CONSCIENCE AT ALL

2008-11-25T20:41:00.004+02:00

if you ever feel like something's missing? things you'll never understand little white shadows, sparkle and glisten part of a system plan

2008-11-20T23:34:00.004+02:00

The first snow today. Not sure if I'm ready for the winter.

she’s got a bent belt by her side she’s got that donkey paralyzed she’s got a cold inner wind and a ware full of sins

2008-11-17T20:51:00.004+02:00

One more boring Monday-game almost over. I haven't done about anything but just slept but I'm still deadly tired. Yesterday was a thirteen-hours-lasting photoshoot for Basso -magazine. Cold, windy and rainy - what a perfect weather for taking pictures that you should look good in... Anyway, I guess the editorial will be in the December's magazine. (I'm not sure if I'm very representative but check out the other model, so damn cute young boy!)

np: Elle Milano (R.I.P) - Oh Society, What Have You Done?

whenever I look back on the best days of my life I think I saw them all on TV

2008-11-10T22:32:00.005+02:00

the last four days: make up -shows gothic false eyelashes helsinki hard partying posing dancing music no eating much drinking cigarettes new people trains shaggy hair high heels bars

today: laying sleeping fever noodles hot chocolate no school boredom frustration

luckily I've got The Bravery.

they'll be hiding in your shadows they'll be hiding in the dark of the night they'll be hiding 'til tomorrow

2008-11-02T21:06:00.008+02:00

Much fun last night - supersick tattooed circus guys, a band with a horse drummer, meeting new people, homemade wine, mysterious I-offer-you-a-drink-and-then-just-disappear-man & falafel. And isn't that earring just damn awesome? Bought from Turkey if I can remember it right.

np: Vampire Weekend - Ottoman

o why can't I live a life for me? why should I take the abuse that's served? why can't they see they're just like me I'm not the one that's so absurd

2008-10-31T16:55:00.006+02:00

Happy halloween!
Listening to some absurd horror music & having a huge craving for some good halloween-party... Anyone?!

Janie's got a gun her dog days just begun now everybody's on the run Janie's got a gun

2008-10-24T22:44:00.005+03:00

(Wish I had a little darkroom of my own. These I've developed at school last year.)

ooh I ain't slept for days now my mind is fuckin' crazy allright ooh baby you mark my hide god damn you make me cry

2008-10-22T18:13:00.005+03:00

1. The hottest coat fashion right now

2. After-party-eating @ bus stop

3. You don't need a bed if you've got a cosy hotel corridor

4. 2x dead lynx

5. A, me & J

6. Ku Klux clan II

7. Rainy day shopping

np: IMA robot - Dynomite

LOST BOYS IN THE LOST TOWN LOST GIRLS IN THE LOST AND FOUND I'LL FIND YOU OUT WHEN YOU HIT THE GROUND

2008-10-20T22:23:00.006+03:00

jet plane dreaming street rat screaming living like the movies she was glitter today

2008-10-18T18:23:00.007+03:00

Stayed at a hotel last night. Yeah, in my hometown. Not sleeping, but typewriting, drinking red wine, lomographing and eating tiramisu & champagne sorbet - really, 26 euros for a liter of ice cream?? But was really delicious!

Lomograph pics later, babies!

np: Clear Static - Dead Man's Party

picking pennies off the floor with my cold, cold hands

2008-10-08T22:56:00.004+03:00

something is not right with me how was I supposed to know? something is not right with me trying not to let it show

2008-10-06T21:59:00.004+03:00

Been distressed but quite ok feeling now Hating school & waiting some good parties. Needing a looooooooong vacation. Listening to Cold War Kids.

control yourself take only what you need from it a family of trees wanted to be haunted control yourself take only what you need from him

2008-10-01T16:02:00.004+03:00

My first lomopics ever.
& I'm totally in love with Leo!

Last weekend was supernice! Partying and modeling and lomographing and hotel-exploring and stuff like that. Now I'm @home and sick (yeah J, bastard!) and listening to MGMT. Kids was played at the Palillo show too! I just love it - you should too.

don’t get me wrong so wrong you weren’t the first boy that I ever kissed with tongues but you were the best

2008-09-25T22:49:00.006+03:00

Say hello to my friend Leonardo the Lomography! Leo is from NY and he's just superrrcute, isn't he? I'm going to do some modeling on the weekend and I'm totally freaking out - my very very very first show ever! Daniel Palillo @ Helsinki Design Week. Luckily Leo is coming with me. (& my Canon-baby too!)

np: Little Man Tate - This Must Be Love

you can have a good time yeah that's alright but I won't sell my soul I won't sell my soul tonight

2008-09-18T21:42:00.005+03:00

It's not worth going to school when you can just hang out in the library and read fashion magazines whole day! And draw some fast sketches.

Forget the hectic occidental lifestyle and do something you really like - that's what I could recommend for all of you. & listening to Morning Runner!

ps. I totally miss my Canon EOS-baby! When I get it back on Monday or Tuesday I'm going to take so many photos I'll have to publish them here even next year!

meanwhile the chance it gives heel underneath their bandages we break each others bones

2008-09-16T20:15:00.003+03:00

Sometimes everything goes wrong. You woke up too late, your hair is dirty & you've got a face like zombie's, you can't find anything you need, there's no time for eating and yes, you also hurt your toe or arm or something. Everything makes you angry. Or.. nervous wreck.

This morning was awful. I just wanted to lie on the floor and fucking cry.

This is why I always have some Vogues, said my friend when I arrived at her front door looking like "walking corpse" as he described me later. Vogues, post-its & a good friend, that's what all burn-out-people should have.

np: Forward, Russia! - Six

WE'RE FELLING SILLY I'M FEELING OH SO SICK

2008-09-15T20:53:00.006+03:00

Monday is a quite boring nonstop-switches-listening day,

but Saturday was a party day!

you wonder why I carry such a weight on my shoulders

2008-09-13T12:38:00.002+03:00

what a hell are you here for

2008-09-11T23:59:00.003+03:00

Yeah, this is how fun I have at school!

scattering flowers washed down by the rain

2008-09-09T20:31:00.006+03:00

When it's raining cats and dogs and other little furry animals it's a perfect day for lying on a coach & watching Lost in Translation & eating yoghurt raisins. Or even better - drinking whiskey in a filthy bar and listening to Joy Division!

But cause I wasn't able to do that I had to come up with something else instead. What means I ate pizza and american cherry throat drops like candies and read about Christianity in the Middle Ages (priests like businessmen, popes like kings and abbeys like jailhouses - that sucks big time!) what made me really, really drowsy.

And then I made some stupid collages like the one above.

np: Joy Division - Warsaw

what happened to your car? I heard you drove real far and just left all your stuff

2008-09-08T15:44:00.008+03:00

Boring photos & bored mind today. The Enormous Restlessness increasing, I really need some change in my life.

np: Morning runner - Frayed edges

I got up in such a hurry I'm still stuck inside my dream

2008-09-07T18:53:00.005+03:00

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Sometimes it's okay to forget oneself somewhere to inside-the-head-worlds, isn't it?

np: Pete and The Pirates - Think Twice

lights and music are on my mind be my baby one more time

2008-09-07T12:06:00.003+03:00

taking first footsteps but don't even know where I'm going

2008-09-05T20:48:00.010+03:00

Yeah, the very first entry! This blog is about photos, sketches, more or less stupid little stories about my life & other shit like that. Please feel free to comment! (not that I'm going to promise I'll really care about your opinnions...)

np: Shout Out Louds - South America