heaven holds a place for those who pray

I should be busy taking pictures (those boring tasks you need to do when you're
applying to art schools) but instead I find myself staying awake far too long
and drafting disco deers and other stupid stuff to my sketchbook. The deadline is
coming closer and closer and slowly killing my vision of myself next autumn; dressed
in black head to toe and going to some fancy art school among the snobbish hipster kids.
Too bad.


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My dad beat me 'cause mine said "mother"

Fuck all the snobbish art schools. This one may be crappy, but this is what I want to learn.
Any of you guys want a tattoo?


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AND I MIGHT SING, "OH BURY ME"

I tell you: when you start drawing on empty cigarette packs, you should definitely do something with your so called life.
Especially if your poor blog is turning into a fucking L&M advertisement.


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I SCREAMED DOWN THE PHONELINE: "SO IS THIS THE PRICE OF LOVE?"

God I'm bored right now! Bored and frustrated. Seasonal affective disorder is coming and taking me, I can feel it... Luckily I can see some light at the end of the tunnel - I've got a great project going on, you'll hear about it later (when it's something more than just some scrawls written on empty cigarette packs).


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WELL I CAN'T REALLY DANCE BUT BABY WON'T YOU DANCE WITH ME AND IF YOU WANT TO TAKE YOUR CHANCE THEN BABY TAKE YOUR CHANCE ON ME

If I had a band, I'd make this my album name, or a song name - except I'd add "on the dancefloor" between "kids" and "got". (& I'd not use this shitty drawing as a album cover) Maybe I should start one.

... too bad I can't play anything.


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he tells his kids not to be bad and grow up like their normal dad he hides behind his mask of grins and covers all his fucking sins

Fuck all that happiness; pure hate, sadness, madness & teenage angst is the thing.


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everything is happenin' so fast

I really dunno what I wanna be when I "grow up" but there's one thing I'm convinced: gonna have lots of fun before that!

he holds me in his metal arms whispers in his soothing robot voice "I'll keep you safe from harm and hold you in my arms I'll keep you safe from harm"

(This I drew on Wednesday at a photo studio while waiting the make-up & hair be fixed. Modeling it's mostly just waiting. Waiting jobs, waiting make-up, waiting the show to begin, waiting everything)

Super good feeling right now, listening to Infadels & waiting the party to begin. Christmas holiday is (almost) here!

oh where are my friends when I need them now where are my friends when I'm alone in the night time

Drunk-drawing, yes!!

It's a quite absurd situation when the club has closen it's doors and while you're standing outside it trying desperately to catch up your disappeared friends, you get over ten afterparty invitations from random people with whom you've never before talked but none of your very own friends dare to answer. Or, if they answer, they have taken a taxi to another town with someone they've just met... Luckily - you've got the ex-bfs.

Now all I want is to sleep until tomorrow.
... Or maybe more partying tonight?

plastic stars in our private galaxy synthpop stars come and play a show

this is what I do during the math lessons

NO NO NO NO OHHH HUNGRY AND ADDICTED AGAIN NO NO NO NO OHHH ALMOST WITH NO CONSCIENCE AT ALL

LOST BOYS IN THE LOST TOWN LOST GIRLS IN THE LOST AND FOUND I'LL FIND YOU OUT WHEN YOU HIT THE GROUND

something is not right with me how was I supposed to know? something is not right with me trying not to let it show

Been distressed but quite ok feeling now Hating school & waiting some good parties. Needing a looooooooong vacation. Listening to Cold War Kids.

you can have a good time yeah that's alright but I won't sell my soul I won't sell my soul tonight

It's not worth going to school when you can just hang out in the library and read fashion magazines whole day! And draw some fast sketches.

Forget the hectic occidental lifestyle and do something you really like - that's what I could recommend for all of you. & listening to Morning Runner!

ps. I totally miss my Canon EOS-baby! When I get it back on Monday or Tuesday I'm going to take so many photos I'll have to publish them here even next year!

what a hell are you here for

Yeah, this is how fun I have at school!

I got up in such a hurry I'm still stuck inside my dream

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Sometimes it's okay to forget oneself somewhere to inside-the-head-worlds, isn't it?

np: Pete and The Pirates - Think Twice